i make a comeback

i miss home

2011-05-28T02:01:00.003+08:00

my mama used to sing this song to me when i was young..
宝宝阿快睡啊~

我的家庭真可爱
整洁美丽又安康
姐妹兄弟很和气
父母亲都慈祥
虽然没有后花园
春来秋回常飘香

虽然没有大厅堂
冬天温暖夏天凉

可爱的家庭阿
我不能离开你
你的恩惠比天长

i miss hearing my mama sing this song and went online to listen.. but i think my mama can sing better than the original singer.. maybe i should ask mama to sing to me again when i get back.

i miss my parents. i miss my sister. i miss my ahma. i miss home...

my mama's most confident song:
海鸥
海鸥飞在蓝蓝海上
不怕狂风巨浪
挥着翅膀看着前方
不会迷失方向。。。

my dad's most confident song:
小薇啊
你可知道我多爱你
我带你飞到天上去
看那星星多美丽
摘下一颗亲手送给你。。。

i dunno whats my sis most confident song.. maybe one of the choir pieces. haha!

2011-05-21T20:23:00.007+08:00

HAPPY :D

#1 finally visited DanceSoul

Damn happy! i have been wanting to go dancing at DanceSoul :D and i finally did it, after living here for 3 months. soo late huh. and i must say, i really enjoy the class! the class is small, unlike O school, the class is sooo uber big with so many students! haha! we did street jazz and the instructor was freaking cool. she's funny and i like the moves she taught us! damn freaking stylo milo :) we danced to the song, The time by BEP :D I am soo freaking happy and i want to go back for more classes! u know what they actually charged NT125 per class only if we get the monthly pass!? so freaking worth it! it's only $6 per class! i pay about $22.5 per class for my LUCIFER in singapore! WOOTS! OH! AND THE INSTRUCTOR WHO TAUGHT US WAS ONE OF THE DANCERS FOR BBT'S HK YAN-CHANG-HUI! HOW COOL! HAHA :DDD

#2 BBT was on KXLL yesterday!

so happy so see all of them. but i think they are not as funny anymore. nothing beats them on MFBBT! arghhh i miss the variety. i really miss them! :(

#3 Peixuan's visiting!

PX will be coming to taiwan next week. and i will be meeting her! i cant wait! yeahhhs! so many ppl are coming! it feels damn good to have friends visiting :) whee :)

#4 nxt week gonna be a happening week :)

more updates coming soon :))

only only you you youuu

2011-05-19T02:03:00.005+08:00

i am dedicating this special post to a special someone!

i havent been an extremely dutiful nor sweet gf. the distance makes it hard for me to express my concern. and even though, I am truly concerned, theres nothing much i could do. in times of extreme pain and turmoil, i know a phone call or msg dont really work. im not pushing all the blame to the distance but, it's a mega factor that i cant ignore.

although my list of how ldr sucks can still go on, i have to admit that distance does make the heart grows fonder. and honestly, we arent married yet, i dont think we can stand seeing each other everyday. doesnt it get boring?

people always say that your first one can never be your last and how teenage romance dont last. i know it's difficult and i cant promise or swear that my first would be my last. but i really wish that could happen. cos i know he would make a perfect husband, indirectly meaning that he's not an amazingly sweet and romantic lover. hees. luckily for me, i think im no longer in the phase of fantasizing how relationships should be a duplicate of those dramatic ouxiangju.

honestly, i dont think i can ever find someone else who can be as patient to me, know when to close his ears and dont let my hurtful comments get him. i know how upset he may be when i get nasty, but him appearing nonchalant makes things alot easier for me when i regret my actions. although i am in the wrong, he can always make me less guilty by appearing unaffected. deep down, i know i must have hurt him alot. i need a guy with a strong heart. and that's him :)

he's always there to clean the mess i've created. always there to help me when im lost.

he's always there to listen although he's bad at advising. HAHA! i was really lonely in melb and i really wanted to sing. so i called him and sang to him for almost 2 hours. hahah! i am rather embarrassed now, i cant imagine i have done such lame things before. how embarrassing. LOL. but he's so sweet, stayed by the phone and listen to me sing. HAHA

i used to get jealous easily especially when he first got into HC. i used to feel so insecure and morbidly uptight. i make a huge fuss over small things easily. i was scary. HAHA. but now, i am so unaffected. i dont think it's bad at all. i really trust him now. HAHA, at least for now, i think everything still falls within acceptable range and i trust him. i trust that he wouldnt do anything that makes me sad :)

as for our rs, i think our greatest hurdle now, is my future. his future is more or less set. he is now a scholar of SP. he will end up serving SP for 4 years and that's his life for the next 7 years. very predictable. me? i m not so sure. i dont like what i will be doing and prolly find a way to know what i want to do soon. with everything so unpredictable, how can i say that things will go on smooth for the both of us. i dont even know what i will be in 5 years time. i hope our love can hold us tightly as i work my way to my (currently unknown) dream career.

i trust him more than i trust myself.

lastly, thank you for accepting my fan-girl momentsss. 3 s cos i have alot of those moments. HAHA.

today's your last paper so congratulations! u are a free man now! :D

2011-05-17T19:38:00.003+08:00

dreams come true!

yeah! i finally saw BBT! :) no words can describe how i feel! i am still very elated.

BBT is the current ambassador of jeju island, so they had to attend this tourism fair held in taipei's world trade center. knowing that they will be holding their book-signing activity there, i decided to go. i almost didnt go. cos i don really dare to go such activities alone and as usual none of my friends are fans too. but i managed to pluck up my courage and begged a friend to go with me. and so nice of him, he went.! the signing starts at 1 pm but i had a geology test in the morn from 10am. so i left the exam hall at 11am and headed down to the venue. the tourism fair in taipei works rather differently from singapore's. the locals have to pay NT150 (student price) to get in! so weird huh. but lukcily, tourists can enter free. if not, i guessed i wouldnt have gone in. cos i was still unsure if i would be able to get their signatures, they would only be signing for an hr. HAHA! after getting our free entrance tickets, we walked into the huge hall and to the centerstage. to my surprise, there werent alot of people. i saw little girls holding banners for BBT. haha! so i joined in. waited for about an hr before BBT arrived. HEES. i bought their book which i thought was a slight waste of money. haha! heck lar. this is my first time supporting them monetarily! hahah :D

when they walked in, i could feel and see their aura from afar :) WOOTS SHUAI! :D so happy! i was so happy during the entire waiting time. HAHA! so harrrpppyyy and excited:D and their die-hard fans are really crazy. they were screaming and shouting, standing onto chairs, just wanting to catch a glimpse of their idol.

they gave their speech and played games with fans. honestly, i knew all the answers to their questions, but i din have the courage to put up my hand. cos i knew the probability of me getting chosen was really high due to small turn-up plus i was one of the few fans standing up. the rest who came earlier than us had seats and i was considered the latest.

because the turn up was really small, we were all very near to them. i think i was about less than 5m away from them. and our eyes totally met! hahah! i am serious! HAHHA

finally it was time to get up on to the stage for their signature. i must have smiled like an idiot. i was too happy to react or say anything. the mc kept reminding us to say something to them, like encourage them all that. but i din know what to say. saying jiayou is sooo weird. hahah! YEAH :D

the best day of my exchange period :D

2011-05-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

i am soooo overwhelmed, mainly with sadness.
so many things happened. and as i grow older day by day, i realise how rare happiness comes by.

i was sooo affected by general election that i started to hate my home and people from my home. i hate how ungrateful people are and how nasty their comments were. accept it that they have done alot for our country, and just by that fact, they dont deserve such nasty treatment. i am scared of people from my country. does it make sense? so critical, so cold and the place scares me now. i feel like a turtle, trying to hide back into my own shell, unwilling to face the cold hard world. sg now seems like an ugly place. i am soo sad, to think that i love my country so much. so much so that people used to call me a nationalist. i told my parents that i dont feel like going back cos sg now seems like a unfriendly place. i told that to my friends here and alot of them felt that i overreacted. but i am quite unwilling to admit that. i should say its because i used to really love sg so much that i actually secretly dislike friends for complaining about sg. how can people scold tpl when they themselves dont even have better qualifications. how can they discredit her just because of an interview. and how can sgp who dont speak any better than rislow laugh at her? i mean, since when laughing and passing mean remarks of other people were accepted. :( i never understood why anti groups exist. why would anyone want to make life suck for others? i dislike many many things too, but why to the extent of being an anti and making others' life so bad? do they actually feel happier?

i saw the video of GY's last media conference. i was overwhelmed and cried for v long. i was so full of admiration. i cant believe that man who was facing the cold-hearted world was actually smiling. i cant believe he thanked us for giving him the chance to serve. he doesnt have to. i would feel better if he had reprimanded us for being ungrateful and stupid. i know alot of people would think that he prolly din mean what he say but who cares! he said it! he didnt have to :( im so uber sad. why isit that the stupid Axxx voters get to decide if out MFA gets to stay or leave. WTFFF i feel helpless and i dont like it that the world is just unfair.

i wish i could turn back time. when such things dont matter.

im finally in taiwan!

2011-03-05T00:28:00.004+08:00

i haven been updating. theres so much going on but too little time and willingness on my part to jot down the happenings.

okay i guess i have a lot to say. and it goes all the way back to my last academic semester in melb.

melbourne. hmmm. i have to admit that life in melbourne has been good. too good to be true. good in the material sense. things are expensive, explaining the quality. i felt spoilt in melbourne. i have no idea why although i try to save every cent i could, splurging occassionally. its a norm to travel during spring and easter break. and every trip out would normally cost close to A$500. i have done that to make myself part of the clique in melbourne. i have to admit that it wasnt good. i just couldnt bring myself to enjoy the trip because my parents are not with me. everytime when i travel, i feel guilty. why am i enjoying while my parents are hard at work. i dont deserve this much. as least i dont think i need to be enjoying to this extent. that was too luxurious for me and i hated it.

best period of melbourne was when ys was there. i applaud his tolerance because i am really not a nice person to hang out with for long. but he brought so muchhh joy to me. it was the most memorale time spent tgth. i am so glad he could live with me, at least i tot so. i am so glad he mixed well with my friends. it's nice. i used to oomplain to him about melbourne. every part of it from the price to the people. and when he was here, i felt that he could relate to all my complaints. he is a calm man and he may not feel my angst but i tot it was nice that he was there to experience what i had gone thru in the foreign land.

it was a less boring semester because of nigel and haoting. at least there are people whom i can rely on when im in need of help. most imptly, i could be myself in front of them. i never once tot i would be so desperate to be myself. i could speak in mandarin, speak english w sg accent, speaking rojak - having both eng and mandarin in sentences. wahhh wad a luxury. hahah

exams had been easy in melb. i m pretty sure all my other friends in prestigious sg unis can do muchhhh better than me. but year 3 in melb uni was no joke. the assignments starting piling, readings etc. :S crap. and last sem i didnt do well. i had no first and 2nd upper results for all subjects done last sem. shit max. i cried right after the derivative securities paper because i couldnt answer more than 50% of the questions. i felt like crying when i still had an hr to go before the exam ended. it was torturous. i flipped thru the paper many times, copying formulas from the formula sheet into the answer space, hoping that it could get me some marks. the school played a trick on us on the day of the release of results. i had all my grades except for the derivative subject. there was no grade and there was the word enrolled in the grade column for this subject. i panicked. wth why no results shown. in the end, it was because 59% of the cohort failed and they needed extra time to moderate the grades causing the delay in the release of results. i almost suffered a heart attack..

hoping that tw uni accepts me for exchange, i decided to move out of my melb house, packing everything back to sg. it was such a huge risk because taiwan uni had not given me any reply. i wanted to exclaim that it was my last semester in melb, but i wanted to save myself from the potential disappointment and rejection, just in case anything happens. i left melb not knowing if that was my last time in melb. that sucks ttm. also i told almost everyone i met in melb that i applied for exchange without thinking of the consequences. imagine having to explain to all these people if my exchange didnt get thru. haha. heck lar. at least i tried right. haha. and here i am! in taiwan now! it wasnt an easy process at all and im still in the midst of getting subject approval from my school. :S

ohman i will cont nxt time about my internship experience.

2011-01-22T23:27:00.002+08:00

haven blogged for some time.
alot of things happened. duhhh :S hahah
got an awesome internship with ey. haha! i know audit life = no life but i dont seem to have much choice. the lucky thing is, i enjoy my work as of now. not so sure about that after i really join them as an associate :S
have been OTing everyday tull about 9pm? now i know what it means by, having no life. hahah! i kind of lost contact with some friends. especially with friends who never really took the initiative to meet me up. if i dont organise, nothing happens. so nothing quite happened. haha!

i have to say, i never love s13's co. this much before. thank you! i never had to organise an outing but we are meeting almost every week. now everyone from the s13 clique is taking the initiate to organise and gladly, others do reply rather quickly :D i had volunteered to organise the next outing at clementi mall :D woots. i enjoy the company totally. hahah!
and clementi mall is the nxt big thing! hahah :D yeahs!i hope there will be a theatre in clementi mall!!! :D

yessss! most people would have known that i had signed up for shinee's lucifer dance class! and i am so enjoying it too! i am constantly looking forward to the class every week! i feel like a t-a-e-m-i-n :DDDD

anw i have no idea why whenever my bus pass by ion, i would always be in awe. the mall looks too awesome from the outside. and the xmas deco last year was great. i feel like im on holiday walking along the streets of orchard road. i am so thankful for that :D yeahs!

2010-10-30T08:55:00.011+08:00

ITS HALLOWEEEN :D

MY FIRST AND LAST HALLOWEEN IN MELBOURNE

Waiting for the tram. ok, i admit that it was embarrasing :X haha. but who cares! it's melbourne :D

i think no one would believe that he is haoting.. LOL

they made melbourne less miserable for me :)

nigel look better like that right. he actually din have to dress up to the halloween theme. haha

loges and kaishen from flare!

meet cleopatra and potter :D

that's the devil, cleopatra and angel!

the group of us :D

yumin the angel/fairy

i like p the geek!!

getting high.. hahah

pumpkin girl

aileen as werewolf..

the ancient greek people?

bloody daryl

she's vonne. she brought me into flare and im sooo grateful for that :D

shimei!:)

shermaine! she's a damn good dancer and choreographer.

joelle. my fellow singapore friend in flare :)

homeeee!

i must say, it's an awesome experience :D

ok, back to the books now.. :(

ann yeong

2010-10-22T19:27:00.002+08:00

ann yeong pek sheng ju
):

nothing to look forward anymore ):

goodbye to the one on the white horse ):

2010-10-20T18:19:00.002+08:00

i have to get it off my chest!!!
things are actually happening in my life!

today was a good day
1. got a confirmation/acceptance call from KP! :)
yeah. so at least now i wont be caught doing nothing during the 3 months break back in sg. and also, there's now more things to add to my resume :D haha

2. a found a pri sch frien studyin in melb uni!
i was freaking shock. after graduating from pri sch, i totally lost contact with all of them. plus i shifted out of jurong, it was even more impossble to bump into them on the streets. fb really makes wonders. i found this friend on fb and found out that he's actually studying in melb uni. hais. i msged him but he din reply, merely added me on fb. grrr. so unfriendly as usual. anws, it took me alot of courage to msg him. i tot it would be nice to connect with each other again, plus we were both overseas.. hais. oh ya, i have no idea why but i really don dare to contact my old pri sch friends. like i will go to their fb page, planning to wall/msg them. but after staring at their page for a few mins, i decided that it was a smarter choice not to leave anything.. as in, i dunno what to say/ask, other than how have u been.. :S
i have never added any pri sch friends on fb cos i find it weird but i will definitely add them if they added me. :S haha. just now i went to 1 of my pri sch's friends fb and look thru her list of friends cos i reckon that she is more in contact with the rest. and ok, except for the make-up, everyone look pretty much the same. hahah! i am curious.. i am rather interested at how everyone is doing. haha!

3. our lecturer just announced that topics on partnerships, trusts and tax avoidance are excluded from the exam
woots. shiok to the max! 3 big chapters out! :S
i am getting stiff neck from all the typing and preparation of tax law notes :S it's an open book. so i will prolly bring in everything. haha!!

4. still feeling the post-skpye happiness
yes. ahah. damn happy to talk to everyone esp at the extent, amount and quality of our bullshit. haha.!

yeah! kyj getting married tmr yeps. sweetness overload. haha :D

2010-10-18T21:24:00.003+08:00

i haven been updating!
anw, skpye was fun fun funnn, exclamation marks!!
haahah! i enjoyed myself seriously! haha! serene makes me laugh! she is sooo funny! wahaha!
and and and everything was great except for the connection! haha!
i cant believe we skyped for more than 6 hours?! but i guess we spent half the time getting each other's video fixed and all. haha

i am so freaking tired. i haven been studying tax law these few days. and it's so difficult :( BOO

i will write a longer and more meaningful post when i am less tired.! anniong..

2010-10-08T22:52:00.002+08:00

3776 miles away
isnt that the distance between us
YES
gan dong nehhhhs
gan dong x2
x3 & this is getting interesting

things like these makes my day.
things like these act as energy booster

an-niong

life so vulnerable

2010-10-02T12:43:00.001+08:00

vulnerable

i feel helpless.

rest in peace

2010-09-29T20:16:00.001+08:00

ken-cha-neh-yo

2010-09-23T19:45:00.009+08:00

ALMOST PARADISEEE :)

YEAH! i fnally finished boys over flowers. i know im slightly late. haha! but its a show worth watching wheee!

i like how the koreans speak! somehow some of their pronunciation sound like hokkien or some chinese dialect. i was never a huge fan of korean dramas in general cos i find it real tired to stick my eyes to the chinese subtitles. but i couldnt find the taiwanese dubbed one, i emphasised on taiwanese dubbed one cos the chi dubbed one was horrible. they sound damn ohmygawddd!

hahah! anw, so i watched the whole show in korean and i like their pronunciations!! like for 安心, it sounded like an xim and 真心 sounded like jinxim. haha! ohhh and they love to ask each other if what they said was really how they felt, so if its a question, it sounded like "jin xim ya?" melts! haha! i doubt u guys understd what i meant but i really love the way they said that! so coool! im going to use this phrase when i get back to sg! haha!! remind me to say that pls!! hahaha

haha! i like the part when gujinpyo's friends told him to act calm when talkin to his girlfriend. they suggested him to sound unaffected and talked to her in a i-couldnt-care-less attitude. but of cos he was very bothered when his gf din call him. so when his gf finally called, the whole conversation was damn funny. it goes like this:

the gf: hey i am chandi

jinpyo: whats chandi... ohhhh haha chandi.. i forgot you for a moment

the gf: are u busy?

jinpyo: ya duh.. i am very busy! i am so busy that i didnt notice that you didnt call me for the last 3 days and 13 hours

DAMN FUNNY!!!!!!!!!

and his friends said that they felt embarrassed being his friends! LOL so cute lehsss

i am really not an anthomaniac

WTH!

2010-09-23T07:50:00.004+08:00

NTU IS GIVING ME SUCH A HUGE MEGA HEADACHE?!?
I NEED TO DO XRAY AND BLOOD TEST BY TOMORROW?

!@#%$%&!$ WTH!!!!

BREATHE DEBBIE BREATHE

MY TAIWAN APPLICATION IS DRAGGING FOR WAY TOO LONG. MY SCHOOL ADMIN SYSTEM SUCKS! I NEED TO GO THROUGH 2 ROUNDS OF SELECTION IN MELBOURE UNI ITSELF. AND THAT TOOK 3 MONTHS TO PROCESS. NOW I HAVE TO HAND IN A DIFFERENT SET OF DOCUMENTS TO NTU AND THAT DOESNT GUARANTEE ME A PLACE? WTH? AFTER SO MUCH TIME AND EFFORT. I REALLY FEEL LIKE GIVING UP ALTHO I REALLY HATE TO STAY HERE FOR THE NXT SEM. !!!

I AM SERIOUSLY VVVV PISSED!!

2010-09-17T23:41:00.004+08:00

i highly recommend this show! :)

i am extremely picky when it comes to dramas. the last one which caused a bit of commotion, xiayizhan, is really nothing compared to this.! and i don understand what was good in xyz! haha

i am in love with kim hyun-joong ♥

i wan to feel nothing. i am so tired of feeling.. emotions

2010-09-11T21:49:00.003+08:00

i deleted a post just now. i feel idiotic to have deleted it. i am so incapable of defending and standing by on my beliefs ):

anw, i only mentioned that i cried after reading that article. i can only say that i respect him alot. and i am very grateful to have tasted the fuits of his success, hardwork and foresight.

i deleted my post after reading the extremely disheartening comment by a Cambridge facebooker. i dont know how to put all these anguish into words, but he really sound like a ungrateful bitch.

and thank you haoting chow. i quote " anyone who put their whole life into building something would be concerned about his efforts going to waste"

and i do feel more than that phrase but i guess that is sufficient for the time being

sorry if u guys dont get it. its a senstive issue.. i guess

2010-09-06T12:07:00.003+08:00

i am just done with my 2nd mid sem test. damn tired. din sleep well last night. i dreamt of all the theories. it was crazy.. it feels like im studying in my dreams :X

anw, i am stilllll not accepted by taiwan.. ohman.. sianed.. come on.. give me a reply soon. i have been checking my inbox and application status like twice a day. i cant wait for my potentail taiwan exchange. haha!!

i have been destroying my house.haha! my oven caught fire 2 days ago when i was baking my fish and chips. i was slightly freaked out, and my first reaction was to shout for my mum.. but obviously, she isnt here in Melb with me. so the rather calm me, immediately switched off the oven and poured water into the oven to distinguish the fire. luckily it was still contained in the oven.. i think im gg to throw it away. im too afraid to try using it again.. but i need it for my frozen bread.. damn it.

today i tried to use the powerful oven provided by my hostel. i dont really use the convection kind of oven so my bowl broke and split nicely into half when i took it out of the oven. damn zzz. and the bowl is an expensive one ): heart pain..

oh, todays ys first night in his hall. haha! goodluck and enjoyyyy (:

2010-09-02T08:22:00.002+08:00

i am just 2 hrs away from my DS mid-sem..

siannned

妈妈，这张有比较帅了吧！！哈哈

2010-09-01T17:52:00.004+08:00

i learnt so much :)

i went for a talk by our country's perm sec. it was inspiring and fruitful. i think i learnt alot about my country and her career life.

she was so clear and everything she said made so much sense. it was alot on politics and enjoyed the whole session. i thought she was so true. she said that when our country is doing well, people refuse to link the good performance with the govt, but when the cty's is not functioning as well, people blame the gov and expect it to do something. and it's so true!

ok, i just wrote a long para on politics cos our QnA session was alot on that. haha! but i guess i better delete them cos i know people may disagree with me. and to avoid any disagreements, they are gone! haha

anw, i caught the rally on CNA live here. i was so excited the entire day. haha! its my only connection to sg. haha this might explain the anticipation. haha! i guess i wouldn be as excited if i were physically in sg. ahah.. anw, i am proud of my country and i love the analogy of the oil spill and sg were part of the rescue team. although i didnt do anything at all, i feel damn proud. haha! i cant wait to go home. there's no place like home (:

my tears burst out when i saw this vid..

for this is where, i know im home :)

ok, makes me kind of miss rv community singing. haha

dream of bbt

2010-08-28T12:38:00.008+08:00

THE BEST THING THAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME FOR THE PAST 2 WEEKS.
I DREAMT OF BBT YTD!!

I WAS SO FREAKING HIGH!!

MY DREAM GOES LIKE THIS:

I WENT INTO A PETROL STATION AND I SAW TH 6 OF THEM QUEUEING FOR THE CASHIER! I WAS SOOO FREAKED OUT AND HAPPY! AND I WENT FORWARD TO ASK FOR A FEW PICS WITH THEM. WOOOHOOO! SHIOK!

I FORGET WHAT REALLY HAPPENED BUT IT WAS GOOD! AND I REALLY REGRET WAKING UP. ZZZ

OHMANNNN.. THIS DREAM IS ENOUGH TO MAKE ME HAPPY FOR ANOTHER FEW DAYS :DDD LALALAAAAA~

2010-08-27T09:53:00.003+08:00

where's my why-so-serious & i-couldnt-care-less attitude..
zzzz

how do i act as if it doesn matter when in fact, i am sooo bothered.
i am honestly not as generous or open-minded
all i can do now is to swallow all those negative feelings and digest them in stride.
i probably going to suffer from some serious indigestion problems.. but whatever it is, it will pass and be shit-ted out. HAHAHA

siannned

thurs are usually my slack days. did alot of non-school related stuff. like read my book, catch up on BBT news, and i watched I not stupid again. it is awesome. i love the movie and i generally love all J N's movie.. i heard his next movie is coming up soon! i cant wait to laugh my ass off. laughter is the best medicine :D

妈妈加油！！

i better call my dad soon. haven talked to him for 2 days. i bet he's fuming. and btw i seriously think i am the only overseas student who calls home every single day. and each time i spent at least an hr on the phone w my ma pa sis and ahma. im not complaining cos the phone calls are generally my only contact w humans..

HECK LARRR
I DONT GIVE A DAMNNNN

I AM LOVING THESE 2 PHRASES

MEMORIES MAKE ME HAPPY

2010-08-26T20:59:00.005+08:00

I MISS DOING CRAZY THINGS.

ys went for camp

2010-08-24T22:41:00.002+08:00

ys is in sembawang now, camping with his fellow hall mates..
i haven talked to him for more than a day..
it feels weird.

after he graduated from ns, he seems to be so ever contactable..
it feels weird...

i just got an acceptance letter from melbourne gloablity center. seems like i have cleared the 2nd stage for my application to go on an exchange.. hmmm.. after the career talk, i really wonder if i should still go for exchange or just stay in aust and obediently finish my studies..oh well, i shall see..maybe taiwan uni may not accept me..

i have been freaking busy with sch work..
so mny mid-sems test coming up.. prays!!

time to sleep! gdnite folks..

a new dream

2010-08-22T08:31:00.004+08:00

i was so glad that i went for the career fair by kontakasssgeeee. i din wan to spell it the right way cos pple may get to my blog easily. ahaha!

it was awesome! i felt that i have something new big and exciting waiting for me! yes i wan to join the xinjiapoooo paablick service! the officers from different departments were so passionate about their job. and i was totally attracted to it. i am so going to send in my internship applications!

i seriously hope i will be selected!!

i love my home and i wan to be part of the team that shapes the country!!

yeahhh!! i have a dream!
this means that my other plans got to be held back. i am so confused now.. grrr!

i attended my frends' graduation yesterday. it was a happy day, seriously. the atmosphere was great and having graduated would mean so much more than just graduating to me. LOL. i better save this part until i graduate. i shant go on about what graduation truly means to me. :))
ohyes, this unknown guy got up to me ystd and claimed that i was his friend. it was crazy cos he was kind of pissed when i couldnt recognise him, in fact, he really got the wrong person. all my friends were around me when he appraoched me, so everyone was listening to our conversation. i think he got really embarrassed after knowing that i wasnt his friend :X ohman, luckily haoting jumped in and save me from the awkward silence. hahaha! thanks friend! hahah!

and i hate it when people pass sarcastic comments. thank you very much, and i really appreciate it :D you know what, i don care.. haha! if it makes you happy, pls go ahead :)
i have so many more important things in mind! woohooo!

history?

2010-08-20T17:33:00.003+08:00

i have lousy memory. i dont remember things for long. but some unhappy memories just cant seem to go away. they keep haunting me.

today i got bored, so i decided to check out documents in my hard drive. woww. cos my hard-drive has this sync function, so it sorts of copy all the files in my old com/laptop into the hard drive and i spent so much time, reviewing all the docs/photos and especially MSN CONVOS

my stomach squeezed when i was reading thru a letter which i wrote to someone before i left for Aust. it was crazy. and it is still crazy.

i dunno how to let myself feel better. just got to bluff myself that those things din happen.

what would it have been, if i wasnt such a loser..

pris in melb!

2010-08-17T21:25:00.004+08:00

who am i?

just met up with pris! she came over to melb for a couple of days! enjoyed the long talk cos i haven seen her for damn long!!

was tellin her my melbourne experience and it was something she didnt expect to hear from me. haha! cos in her opinion i was a social butterfly. HUHHH how can that be me? i never thought i was good at handling people and relationships. i just so happened that i managed to meet all the right people in rv. haha! maybe thats the reason why i cant bear to let the rv era of my life to just go and be history. the reason why i constantly compare everything with rv. haiii, ok it sounds like i got to change or to pris, revert back to the rv me. cos the rv me was way happier :)))

to all my rv friends whom i have lost contact with, i miss you!

and thanks ht and n, your presence in melb matter alot. cos im really the true me in front of the both of u! so the trying-my-best-to-be-friendly me can take a rest...

and thanks to all who are concerned! and to my fav WK. u are the best! hahah! ok, now i regret, i bet u are gg to make some sarcastic comments about this. hahah!

2010-08-16T20:35:00.002+08:00

why so serious

i hate to take everything so seriously. everytime.

my new motto in life - why so serious. i think i will be happier. less serious = less expectations.

part 3

2010-08-14T12:43:00.002+08:00

okie, i am back for day 4

day 4 was a slack day for us. cos we din really wander too far from home. just hang around lygon street and watched movies at home. we were too tired to go out that day. cos we have been going out alot for thefirst few days, plus the lack of sleep, i thought it was necessary for us to take a rest..

but day 4 dint end in a boring note.! :D cos we met up with trish, leo, ht and n. it was a good night catching up. especially with nigel. it was the first time we met up with him after coming back from sg. you bet he has lots to say. crazy things were going on in his life. i was soo shocked and shocked.. hahah!! i was so concerned about his story that i kind of left trish and leo out -.- i wanted to introduce leo and trish to n, but hmmm there were more important things to discuss about! hahah.. aiyoo, i really have the urge to blurt out everything but i know its kind of top secret. so shut.. hahah!! nigel is really one interesting person. hahah! we kind of had lots of fun laughing and scolding at him!

after dinner at YING THAI this thai restaurant, i wanted to bring ys to freddos but it was closed for winter break! freddos totally rock! love the durian and roche flavour. pity that ys din get a chance to taste it before gg back to sg. ): so in the end, we went to cocoa black, a place for desserts, coffee and choco. hahah! nigel ordered this lame choco pop thing that costs 7 bucks. the serving is so damn small so we end up laughin at him AGAIN. LOL. i ordered hazelnut hot choco, hmm not really my type cos it was sooo thick and it makes me sick :X haha. over desserts, we continued our crap. it was damn lame but i seriously had alot of fun!

thanks ht and n!

part 2

2010-08-13T16:19:00.003+08:00

ellooo, i am back, to continue from where i have left off.. hmmm.

o shit, i think i have really forgotten alot of things. i can only rely on the photos taken to refresh my memory. but there are alot of interesting events that took place but wasnt caught on the camera. ohnooo. my memory is failing me :X

okie, so from the photos, the 3rd day seems pretty boring -.- haha! we went to hannaichi for lunch.. i had chicken curry don while he had chicken katsudon. we both agreed that curry chicken was better. o yes i suddenly remember! that day i wore a top that made me feet really uncomfortable, so i started scratching, in the end ys forced me to go home to change before we head to our 2nd destination. on the way home, we passed by this ripcurl shop, and had some fun in. he tried a few beanies and caps, look totally retarded. haha!
after changing, we head to the parliament house. there was a treasury park next to the parliament house. i tot it was a really beautiful and quiet place. i love places which are not crowded! we had some fun strolling in the park. i tried to do a few jump shots but because i was wearing pumps, they flew out everytime i try to do some ultra fantastic jump. walaooo, it is getting boring -.- after the park, we headed back to the city where ys was going to meet up with his friend, glenn from monash medicine. we went to chinatown and had some HK food at the pancake house . o anw, i dint know what to say to glenn initially and socializing isnt my forte, so .. i ended up eating quietly, contemplating whether to open my mouth, and what i should say. haha..actually i am secretly enjoying the dinner cos ys is such a @#$%^$&%@ person and he never allows me to join him and his friends, so this should be the first time. me attending his meetup as his gf! haha! :D okie, i hope i don sound despo.. it's really these little things that make me feel good bout this rs :) oh i think his friend doesnt read my blog, but he totally sound like a mega mugger. haha! OOPS! just like ys!
after the dinner, we trammed down to the casino. ys is such a gambler!! he keeps telling me how much he wanted to gamble!! and he starts blabbering and boasting about his winning experience during the World Cup. haha.. i really think the really rich people in melb, patronizing the casino are the asians who dont look at all rich. seriously, they look like farmers! ohno, i know i shouldnt judge by their appearances but it was an eye opener for me!
after casino, we went to the yarra river and took some photos. the bad thing about travelling alone is we cant take couple shots.. siannzz. i think we dont have much shots together as compared to ys heaps of solo pics. haha!
that should be it.. i will go recall, see if i missed out any details.
it's 730 soon, im gg for some graduation dinner wit my other friends who have just graduated from melb uni. blehhh. i hate gg out recently. firstly, the cold makes me hate changing clothes, secondly, i dont feel like gg out into the cold. lastly but most importantly, he had just left. his leaving made me so sian towards everything and anything now. glum shit..

honeymoon

2010-08-11T19:26:00.003+08:00

ehhh, i have no idea how i should feel while i write this.
elated? cos this is truly the best holiday. or upset cos it has all ended..

it was really an amazing trip for me. thats sooo much fun and i dunno where to start from. haha!

day1:
left sg on quantas a380. nothing amazing but it feels great to have him next to me on the plane! :D we reached melb tullamarine airport at bout 5am, super tired and excited.! hee.. erhh i actually kinda forgot what happened on the first few days, i need the photos to remind me :X o! i rmb that when we were back in sg i kept reminding him to bring thick winter clothes over cos it will be pretty cold, it's still winter afterall. but he kept assuring me that he's not afraid of the cold, i felt like bashing him up that time! haha!anws when we walked out of the airport, he finally understood what i meant by it's really cold here in melb :X haha. thats the result of acting smart bb.. the ride home from the airport was fast cos there wasnt any traffic that early in the morn. haha! reached home and he started unpacking his stuff, but its more like me unpacking his stuff for him. haha! after he hung his clothes on my rack and blew up the air bed, my room look really cramp and messy :X after all that unapcking, we went to sleep. it was the first time i slept with him in my room, separately duhhh i felt really weird, dint manage to fall asleep. plus his thunderous snore.. haha.. so i lied in bed till bout 11am before i woke him up and we head out to SEASALT to have his first meal here in melb. and he loved it as much as i do! seasalt sushi rocks man. i really missed seasalt everytime when im in sg. ahaha. slack around in school and at home before we went to SEOUL to meet up with haoting! YS loved SEOUL's food too especially when they actually served free flow side dishes. hahah! the 4 of us talked alot and i really enjoyed myself. it was a good start for our honeymoon. HAHA. after the long dinner, we headed home and watched movies. haha! oh yes, i wanted him to help me to change lightbulbs. cos my lightbulbs fused towards the end of last sem and i couldn reach the lamp that was on the ceiling. so i asked ys to help me. and guess what!?!? the whole lamp came off from the ceiling. damn scary! he's such a good help right -.- (continue reading to find out how helpful YS was during his 2 weeks stay!) the night wasnt a good night for both of us. cos i only had a blanket and a pillow, we each took one. he had the pillow while i had the blanket. i had trouble sleeping without my pillow so i din manage to sleep in the end.. it wasnt a good night for him too i reckon since he had no blanket.. it gets freezing cold at night.. but i could hear him snore, so im not sure bout tt. hahha!

2nd day, i had lecture at 9 am. BOO. i woke up early and went for class alone while that huge fat ass was still in bed. someone said he wanted to walk me to sch the previous night.. HAHA anw after my 2 hrs lec, i brought him to st kildas beach. we found a playground there and started playing on the swings. i was so high. at that moment, i still couldn believe that the whole trip was true. we had fish and chips, had mocha at the cafe on the pier and took some photographs. i felt like a great host! haha! cos he had to depend on me totally! normally when we were in sg, he was always the one who managed to get the directions right, so i had no choice but to trust him. this time round it's me who managed to navigate our way in melb! woohooo. and he looked a lil lost at times especially when the angmohs talk to him. i think he's not used to it yet. haha in fact i am also not used to the slang yet too.. after taking a stroll along the beach, we decided to head back to the city. seriously, i have never really travelled anywh before, i was a lousy host. i had no idea where to bring him. while we were on the tram back to the city we passed by this park that looks interesting, so we decided to hop off and go check it out. we had no idea where we were, just go. haha! i felt adventurous man. i will never do that without him! haha! so, we ended up at the shrine remembrance. its a beautiful musuem. we spent the entire evening there and took lots of photos. the great thing about melb is, the place is huge, we had the luxury to take as many photos as we want and there are no other humans in the bg. i love the place. the sun started setting and it was about time we leave..we headed home and i cooked that night. it was a pathetic dinner. thank you bb for saying it was still good. :X we only had a huge pot of laksa gravy, rice and an hard boiled egg each. it was really miserable and i felt embarrassed ):

wahh this is getting a bit long. i will cont tmr!! :D

thank you for this awesome trip

not exactly what i tot it should be

2010-07-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

this hols was not exactly what i thought i should had been. alot of nasty things happen :(

pardon me if i sound angsty. cos i only blog when i dont feel good :S

List of @%%*&$%^ things that had happened:

1) smashed my dear camera. what should i say. damn unlucky. felt like tearing when i saw the lens smashed. had been a camera owner for 7 years and i had never in my life dropped a camera. now my camera is smashed and it cost me a freaking $240.75 to repair it. i felt extremely terrible and left the party early to prevent dampening the celebrative mood.

2) missed leo's bday party. what an awesome friend i am.

3) still not dealing with tardiness well.

4) lots of disappointment, i should say. i think i had gotten my priorities wrong again. sometimes i wish i own some magical device that would guide me in making the right decisions, to avoid failures and disappointment. i know making wrong decisions is part and parcel of life but honestly, i think i had been making too many wrong decisions already. all these decisions had indeed made me real tired

woo, time to let these emotions go and head back to reality, aussie

thank you sys for the talk. altho i doubt i will heed your advice

self-entertainment

2010-06-06T21:04:00.001+08:00

very amused by this pic.

courtesy from eugene ling's Facebook

家

2010-05-29T20:48:00.000+08:00

超
想
回
家

i am disgusted

2010-05-28T20:37:00.003+08:00

change is the only constant.
i wish i am more detached. i wish i feel less.

daddy came in 3rd in some golf competition. damn cool! one step closer to his dream of being a national golf representative. HAHA
congrats.

TO KEUNG POYAN WINNI, SERENE LOW MEIJUN, THNG HUIPING, LOW JIANMING, LEONG YEOWLIN, CAN U HEAR THAT I AM CALLING OUT TO YOUUUU?
TIAN AH. MISS U ALL LOADS!

4 hours of laundry

2010-05-21T22:11:00.004+08:00

yes, i did 4 hours of laundry today! in future i shall refrain from buying clothes that need to be washed manually..

tardiness is one of my greatest peeves.

oh! and i always wanted to say,.. i have a tranny as classmate! haha! how cool is that! too bad, i din have the chance to make friends with her, or rather him.. but still, i think this whole thing is so amazing! haha! such a rare chance to meet such special people. and i had been having lessons tgth with her for the past 11 weeks. haha!

oh yes.. alvin headed home yesterday after 3 weeks in aust. haha! i felt pretty bad that i din spend much time with him. and he had to travel alone most of the time.. but still, i hope he had an enjoyable time here. hahas!

i love this quote from alvin. i have to say, he's sooo clever and i admire his excellent diction.
"you know what's the similarity btw this and singapore idol, nobody gives a damn"
hahaha.. applause!

ytd night, i msned with kangyu. he was filling me in on the details of his coming birtday party which i couldnt attend. ZZZ ultimate sian. this is the nth party that i am gg to miss. wth! anws, he was trying to tell me someonw whom he was planning to invite. den i went "oh, she's from 2d?" i thought that was a rather standard reply but he was so damn shock that i categorize people into classes. haha! don we always do that? like, whenever win updates me with a new fresh juicy gossip (LOL) about someone whom i am less associated with, i will always ask for the person's class to confirm his/her identity.. normal right? haha!
yeahh.. i tot it was interesting that he made such a big fuss over the whole class-categorizing habit of mine. haha

and pls, go watch this video. kangyu and yanzhi's show
it is super hilarious. haha! i couldn stop laughing even after i have watched it the nth time! it is really amusing! the only down side is that the video is too short! aha! if u need a laugh, i highly recommend this! haha :D enjoy!!

new look

2010-05-21T00:24:00.003+08:00

always wanted to change my blogskin.
so that it's easier for my laohua mama to read

damn. it's 3am soon..

blog again.. goodnight

oh shit.. wheres my tagboard..

cant think of an apt title

2010-05-19T14:25:00.003+08:00

today is my free day. i love free days.

anyways, i went to google the distance btw sg and melb just now, out of boredom. haha i decided that i want to note it down. so i shall blog it here. haha. the answer is.. 3776 miles or rather 6076 km.. haha!

my fetish for tutus

i have piles of work to do but i am so reluctant..

BOO

oh anw, i went to school today to participate in a survey by an Honours student. the survey got me thinking.. imagine yourself a project manager of a firm and currently, there is a competing firm that is interested in signing you over to their co. and you show signs of interests. but you have 3 projects in hand that were all not doing too well. you know that if u give up the project A now, your current co. will lose less. but giving up a project would tarnish your reputation in the industry and the firm that is planning to hire you may reconsider your entrance.. if you don't give up the current project now, the impacts of the failure of your project would only be delayed to after your entrance to the other firm, meaning that it will not affect your entrance to the other firm. so, what will u do? give up the project or not?

haha.. be honest!

anws, i earned 10 bucks just by writing a short para of what i would do.. wheee!

not in the best mood

2010-05-06T22:34:00.002+08:00

today's ys birthday, but i am not there to celebrate with him ):

he had a mini party at his house and i am not there ))): i knew that i wouldnt be there on his 21st birthday like long ago.. but i cant help but feel really upset. i have no idea why i am so affected too.. BOO. hais, he is probably laughing away with his friends now. and thats a good thing. at least i know u are happy on your birthday. happy birthday

just read thru the bix fi textbook for 4 hours on a single chapter. totally don understand how the futures contract works. i feel dizzy now :X

sorry if my sentence doesnt make sense of doesnt seem to link. i guess i am really gg bonkas now.

hang on!

anw friends, i'll reach sg on 26th jul night. see you guys soon. really miss the crazy times we had together!

oh my lecturer pronounces temasek holdings as tear-meh-sack holdings. haha. i was still wondering what that was when he referred tearmehsack holdings as one of the most renowned corporations in sg. haha. until this singaporean student who sat beside me, exclaimed temasek the singaporean way. haha. an addition note: singaporeans are all ard me even in this land farway fm home.

HAHAHAHAHA. I WAN TO ESCAPE FROM MY TEXTBOOKS! DEBBIE IN NO-TEXTBOOK LAND! UP AND COMING POP MOVIE. WAHAHAHA

JUMP TILL YOUR SOCKS DROP PPLE!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOO

happy birthday dad

2010-05-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!

i cant wait to finish my degree. i want to be physically there to celebrate my dad's birthday with him!

will interest rate rise tmr?!
haha

simplest thing to look forward to

2010-04-28T15:38:00.002+08:00

im going out in half an hour's time. to go have a good meal and to celebrate han's birthday!
im in a surprisingly good mood today. maybe cos i managed to start my mugging engine a bit today. haha

and alvin's reaching melb on fri! WOOTS! something to look forward to! and my iphone! wheee! haha!

time to start my ultra high power mugging engine!

to all my pengyous having their exams in sg, gambatte nehhh!

good mood

2010-04-28T11:39:00.003+08:00

i love her dress. maybe except for the deep V cut. HAHA
it's sooo pretty (:

photo courtesy of xx's blog (:

it's my life

2010-04-04T19:39:00.002+08:00

maybe it's because of all the talk about graduation that is making me feel so unsecured and apprehensive.

i have been sticking onto the safest path that ever existed. pri school, good sec school, good jc, not too bad uni, safest undergraduate course (not a too difficult course and yet widely demanded everywhere in the world). isnt it an extremly safe route.

but is this what i really want.
i am going to live my life only once..

when there's so much to consider

2010-04-03T16:13:00.003+08:00

i have always been wanting to do this.

but there are some big things that i have to give up

should i go with my heart or the brain?

i dont want to regret.

i need enlightenment

jia

2010-03-26T11:37:00.002+08:00

miss home badly
had a terrible nightmare yesterday. couldn hold back my tears when i rcall the nightmar again.
i wan to protect my loved ones..

i miss home..

melbourne?

2010-02-22T16:20:00.002+08:00

cant believe my hols are ending soon.
BOOO. HAHA. ok, i should stop complainin.. melb is really a nice city with fab weather.. but u know, my everything is in sg.. i miss everythinggg here!! GOSH. i have been in a pretty bad mood recently, i think it's the pre-departure blues. :X
the only good thing bout gg back this time round is I HAVE A FRIEND WITH ME NOW.! HAOTING IS MY SAVIOR! HAHA. not like i have no friends there but u know, it;s different! haha! haoting! here i come! LOL

haven been blogging. but there are certain things that i really wan to note down, and remember them for life? haha

1. resort world is amazing! i shall not elaborate how i managed to enter without payin entrance fee.. the place is awesome! i am so proud of sg and i felt like tearing! we are having this in sg! the staff in resort world are really well-trained and friendly! they greet u but honestly, i felt a bit tired to greet back after the nth staff greeted me. haha! anws, talkin bout resort world, i am so full of praises! HEES.. i cant stand those critical comments judging and questioning the sincerity of the resort world staff. walao eh, stop complaining lar, pple dont greet u say they rude, pple greet u say they fake. ZZZ. and that day, when i was in my co transport gg home, i heard some of my colleagues complaining about how sg ha become so commercialised and tourism-oriented which makes sg lose the home feeling. :X again, walao eh, last time complain sg boring now say too commercialised. zzz. im sorry i love sg and i cant take such comments. HAHA!

2. worked in 2 different organisations. encountered some management and contract prob with the first org and was really pissed, but i got over it really soon by finding myself another job attachement. got a post as an account assistant. it was much fun and i learnt alot. worked under a fabulous manager who taught me alot of things. not only that, he is really patient capable and nice-tempered! :D

3.attended a friend's wedding. i was so honoured to be part of her sisters team. we were really new to the gate-crashing games but it turned out well. wheww. i was really happy to have witnessed such an important occassion. all the best for your marriage :D

4. went taiwan! i finally went taiwan! love it! to the max hahah

cont with my update another time. i have short concentration span. HAHAH

singapore

2010-02-08T14:41:00.003+08:00

love singapore to bits :D
have been enjoying myself thoroughly :D

this is home, truly
where i know i must be
where my dreams wait for me
where the river always flows...

the most satisfied photo we have ever taken :D
thanks to yl for his pro cam :D

more updates soon :))

UP!

2009-09-08T09:35:00.002+08:00

watched UP with pam ytd. it was good! but i was somehow disappointed..maybe cos i was expecting too much. hees, but overall, it was worth the watch. haha!
thank you for the adventure.

ytd had CM mid sem test. i was ultra bad. i din feel the sense of relief even after finishing the paper. omg. i hope it wouldn turn out too badly..

yesyes pple, i am trying so hard to get a life..see, i went to watch my first eva movie in melb. haha!

and good news, 7 weeks have gone by in a blink of an eye! it's just 9 more weeks! omg. that's super fast :)) wHeee

settling down

2009-08-26T00:17:00.004+08:00

i realise everytime i come back to melb, i need some time to adjust emotionally. haha. and i guess i have! anw im doing a dance production end of this year! im excited! yesterday, we had a 3 hours rehearsal. it was bad. i felt sooo lonely!! cos im so new and i join the club alone... i sat with no one while waiting for my piece's turn. altho i have friens doing the same piece as me. but all of them had their other friends in other pieces. im bad at making friends leh. especially friends i only see once a week for practice :X while sitting at my seat, enjoying other dances, i really miss rv and nj dance soooo much. i rmb the times when we talk so loudly, have fun, taking photos in the fitting room. praying, practising. never a moment alone. and the mad rush to change into costumes. i rmb how other dancers will help each other change into costumes, but this time, i know i have to do it alone.. cos i dont know how to approach a less than frien kind of friend to help me. worse still, my 2 items are one after another.. all the best man!

how i wish rv and nj dancers can come together for a production one more time. talking bout that, whats with the rv alumni thing. dragged on for years man.. pian ren de!

oh haha! i got vvvvv high just now talkin to ser. cos we were backstabbing win. ahha! so fun lar! all the gossips! im high on gossips. haha! WHEEEE

oh anw, i realised i have been comparing my life with my past so much. so much that thats why i am not enjoying everything now.. talked to jas and she said alot of things that enlightened me. she is so good at being a psychologist! haha! so from now on, i shall ban myself from talking about the past!! GET A LIFE, ME.. HAHA

letusdancetogetheragain and ipromiseiwillcherisheverymomentofit...

happy bday

2009-08-09T21:44:00.002+08:00

today wasnt a good day for me.
i dont want to elaborate :(

most imptly, i didnt manage to get the tickets for natl day celebration here. i felt awkward not watching the ndp this yr. cos i have always been watching it every year without fail.
plus yanzhi is marching. i promised him that i would be watching :(

i want to watch :(

i miss sg i miss home.

all this chat

2009-08-08T23:38:00.003+08:00

have been facing some social problems recently. i guess my social skills still require lots of polishing.

last week i had an OB lecture about managing people. the lecturer was talking about first impressions, stereotypes and impressions. i felt guilty. cos i think i stereotype, i believe in impressions too. not really first impressions but when i see a side of someone that i dont really know how to appreciate, that impressions will be stucked on my mind. i forgot what effect that is called. but i felt that the lecturer has said everything about me. i know all that sucks but how. i am just like that. gosh.

i realise i have been faking laughter alot these days and the smile plastered on my face? ohman. i sound unhappy dont i. but in fact i am really not that unhappy. haha. just that these problems have been staying in my mind. i have been thinkin about all these recently so yar.. there it is..

anw, talked to haoting just now. and he made me really envious. the group went out to have fun today. gosh. i am missing all the fun. he told me some details and i cant imagine that i actually laughed imagining the things that had happened. HAHA

oh, just had 2 surprise birthday parties for 2 of my friends. i was the one planning. i realised how immuned i am to planning surprises for my friends. they get all frenzied, anxious and excited. oh and nervous and scared of being exposed. but i felt so calm. haha too much planned surprises in sec and jc. i think thats why. haha. i am a pro planner of surprises :D

and to all the friends who are involved in ndp tmr. jiayou!

schizophrenic

2009-08-02T23:22:00.002+08:00

just talked to kangyu and jm online.
is this the rv thing. i can totally be myself when i talk to them.
i am always typing in caps when i talked to them. cos i really need an outlet to let off all that frustration in me. haha!
i cant imagine i was talkin to ky bout rv and how we loved it. and the talk bout principal. wad a joke. rv days seem to be damn long ago. but i can still rmb it all!

anw, thanks for the chat ppl.

撑腰

2009-05-09T13:27:00.001+08:00

lol. i am now addicted to this song by xiao zhu. haha! it's so light hearted and cute!
and i love the MV. it's so cool!

and the dance is so cute too! i wanna learn the moves soon! hahaha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IINH8MHxaqU

happy birthdays

2009-05-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PAPA, NIGEL AND YS.

4th may was my dad's bday! woo. i planned so much surprises for my dad. haha. not really a very surprising kind of surprise. but i sent him a hand made card! haha. and the mail reached him exactly on the day of his bday. i tot the mail will reach him like maybe a few days after his bdae! wooo. shiok! i hope my papa was touched. hee. cos i sent it to his office. i went online to check out his office add. but the address wasnt updated. it is still showing the old address. my dad shifted his office's location about a year plus ago. haha. so i had to beg my busy sister to helped me.. LOL. and the best thing was! i had a webcam session with my family on my dad's bdae.! i was so high and so happy! so fun. my family is stilll so noisy! and i kind of miss the noise. HAHA! i miss singapore!!
I WISH MY LAOPA ETERNAL HEALTH, BLISS AND HAPPINESS! :D

and i planned another surprise for ys too. i planned his surprise like bout 2 months ago when i was back in singapore. i went to befriend his hc best frien. LOL. so i could pass the bdae present to his friend. ahah! and cos i know ebo is in the same camp as him so i also asked ebo to help buy a bday cake for him on his bday. haha! ohman, i didnt mean to befriend all his friends on purpose. haha! but that isnt a bad thing rite, i have my SPIES :D

anw, all the assignments and school work is killing me. and i hate cooking!

ohoh! i am going back to sg on the 28th of june! i cant wait!
hao peng you men, pls pls plsss spare me your time when i get back alrite. cos i will only be back for a month which is 4 weeks. i dont know how i am going to attend all gatherings and meet everyone but i will try cos i miss everyone! HAHA

and to all galfriends, enjoy ur hols! :D
keung! where have u disappeared to? u seriously disappeared la. nvr see you online at all.! GRRR

2009-04-27T22:18:00.002+08:00

woo. i cant imagine all of u are finishing ur exams soon?!? i still have 2 more months. zzz
anw, im gg back on the 28th june! wheee as usual, i cant wait! but this time the break is only a month. and i will be coming back to melb on the 28th jul. super sianed!! -,-
but this time manage to buy a suepr cheap ticket. it costs oni 750 for 2 ways! WOOO! but it's malaysian airlines so i have to transit at KL. it's gg to be slightly more troublesome.. but who cares. save so much $$ haha!!

hehe, thanks for the prompt and lengthy email replies. i am damn touched. only when i relate or talk to u guys, i feel normal and myself.! :D xiexie ni men lar :D

anw, its getting freaky cold now. the temp now is 9 degrees. wth. my fingers are turning into ice. grrr. i cant wait to go back to sg. i heard it's pretty hot there now.. hah.. i miss the sun!!

and congrats to njcd!! GWH! wooo
but i was extremely sad that the mighty and infallible rvdance didnt get an honours this yr :( 3 golds :(((( tian ah.. nvm! nxt syf!! hahaha

i'm lucky

2009-04-05T16:48:00.002+08:00

ho. i suddenly recalled an incident that happened two weeks ago and i felt a serious need to blog about it. hehe.
this is my second semester here in melb. and this time, coming here feels different. i have learnt to accept that im going to be here for the nxt 2 yrs plus so to make life easier for myself and my family, i gonna accept all these and move on..
anw, i tried to be more sociable this time round, trying to make friends with people and even trying to make friends w pple who are so ^#^&)%!!! LOL. that day i had a talk with 2 other friends and i realised how great our differences are. his point of views and they way he looks at everything is so "commercialised", he doesnt know what true friendship is and throughout his life, making friends to him is to help expand his social network so that he can climb up the corporate ladder with ease in future. isnt that sick? i think he is. he told me that guys will never help guys and that guys only help girls. i had so much to oppose but i didnt cos i think he's too blinded by his own theory so i just kept quiet but i really felt sorry for him. we talked bout sec and jc. i had so much to share because i felt that i generally enjoyed my years in rv and nj cos of the friends. but all he had to say was "u should have gone to AC" i was like why. he said cos the school is saturated with rich pple and making friends with them can help me ... ... in future... ... blah. and he goes on and on about the benefits of making rich friends. ohman. i will NEVER excchange the days that i had in rv and nj just to make rich friends. he's so pathetic. i can understand that as we grow older, people around us get more superficial, but does he want to start all that even earlier? ohman ohman.. hao ke lian! haha..
all the talk bout friends and rv and nj make me miss those times even more. the only thing that im glad about is that i am still in contact with many of my good friends :)

peng you men, debbie loves youuuu! HEHE and iam so sooo glad that u are part of my life!! WOOTS.

ohman, and goodluck to rv and nj's syf! reg! i reckon that u are the only dancer reading my blog (cos only you tag) lol. inform me of their results yea. wooo. so exciting!

2009-04-03T21:23:00.002+08:00

i am not sad BUT very happy.
no matter how hard i tell myself that i am not that unworthy.. it still is the truth.
HAHA. what the heck. it's a joke. i am a joke. ok.. finally admitting.

u will never know if you never try, a cliche statement..
i tried, and i know how hard it is. almost impossible.
ok, so this is what they mean by, not meant to be.
i get it now.

LOL. zzz

I AM EXTREMELY HIGH TODAY. WOO.
HAHAHAHAH
I AM SOOOOO VERYYY VERYY HAPPY :D

i can see your halo

2009-03-23T19:37:00.007+08:00

zzzzzzzzz i am so freaking tired now. was doing ata research the entire afternoon and night. give me a break! i tot i could like rest a bit after the jap quiz but assignments and tests are piling up!! gosh!!
i am so tired!
the weather's getting cold. i am so not lookin forward to e gloomy winter..

妈妈你好！my mama is currently the most ardent fan of my blog. LOL!
又加班，辛苦你了！！

i hope ys is doing well in brunei..

hello!

2009-03-20T14:20:00.003+08:00

woo!! i havent bee blogging for quite some time.
ohman, i have something to announce, i finished my jap online test. hmm yea i know it's an open book test but it took me a few weeks to really just get my hiragana and katakana! lol. anw, it's over!!!!! WOOO

im doing fine here pple. don worry. i kind of miss everyone back in singapore. so talk to me when u see me online!!

i just cooked porridge but i think it sucks. not that it's burnt and inedible but it just has got no taste. grr. nvm, i will do smth to it later... siannnn. hate meals that are tasteless..

2009-03-04T19:42:00.002+08:00

I
AM
FEELING
SORE
TODAY

#$$^(*&^(*!!!!///!!!!!!

reached!

2009-03-03T18:37:00.002+08:00

woo.i am finally back in melbourne. gosh! cant believe that school is starting and i have to start mugging like a toad AGAIN..
napped for 4 hours today cos i didnt have enuff sleep for the past few days cos of all the groceries shoppin and cleaning of my new room.
oh! i love my new room. altho this new room is half the size of my previous one, it's still comfortable enough for me :) and one good thing is that i subscribed for resident phone this time round. shiok to the max! haha! cos if i call back to singapore it will be ard 3 cents per min and it will be as cheap if my mum calls from singapore. woo!
ohman, jap is sooo hard. :( goshhh

ohyea! thanks to win ser jas jm yl jj (RV representatives! LOL) and yf mel queen jason kangyu cheekian (o6s13!) for sending me off! 太感动了！

goodluck to all my friends back in singapore, for your mid-terms, comms parade/ball and NS!

going back

2009-02-19T20:24:00.002+08:00

today mama went on leave to go shopping with me! buying all the things that i'll need back in melb. ohman, cant believe i am gg back alr. haha. but honestly, i think i slack too much back home alr, time to start sch! hoho

the sun is scorching hot today! tian, i almost melt! haha!

my timetable is out! alot of one hr breaks in btw classes and no more 4 days week. i don like one hr break !cos go home a while den need to come out but if dont go home theres nth i can do. :( but my friends and i are meeting online later at 9pm sg time to change our timings tgth. haha! wish us goodluck!! if not need go attend class alone. sian to the max. HAHA

my extended valentines

2009-02-15T13:46:00.006+08:00

haha!i have an extended v day celebration!

my big head LULU

jap lunch

these fishes remind me of shihui!

good!

SHUAI!

spot LULU!

happy debbie :DD

MINE!

13th o2

making of bighead LULU

ohyesohyes, i love RV!

he told me to give him a compass. LOL

lulu's first expedition!

neverrrrendingggggggg

calls from his camp! grr~

whhee!

love in the air

happy cny!

2009-01-31T16:01:00.006+08:00

yeah! it's the chinese new year again! i love chinese new year! cos i like the new year atmosphere! i used to love it when i was in secsch/jc cos of the school celebration and my all time fav- COMMUNITY SINGING. haha! i miss community singing!!

went chinatowning on the eve eve eve of CNY (friday). wooo! i love gg to chinatown during chinese new year! it's so fun to squeeze in the crowd!walking from stalls to stalls, trying out their new year goodies. haha!! chicken rice and xiaolongbao rocks :D HAHA :D yeahyeah! im a lucky angel ;]]

went to the family chalet on the eveeve of CNY. all the way at changi. it wasnt fun but it wasnt too bad too. i sat at the dining table for super long cos of the steamboat. i had lots of my fav food! pork meat balls, shuijiao and abalone! haha :D oh, i have two little cousins, both ard one year old. woo! it's so difficult to play with them! they will force me to play with them when they are happy but when they are feeling selfish, they will scold me when i touch their things. ohman, kids are sooo hard to please. HAHA. den one of these cousins had a special liking for me. wanted me to follow her everywhere she went. i didnt mind cos i didnt have much things to do at the chalet. the nightmare came when she demanded me to watch her shower!! TIAN AH! so i stand outside the toilet door, looking at her bathe. -.- haha. kids. LOL

chuyi, went to my ahma place. sianed totally. i cant gamble lar. my cousins/ uncles/ aunties were initially playing blackjack, not gambling, means we play for the fun of it, no need money, den i won super alot of times. after they started to play with money, i din even get a blackjack for a single time -.- SIANED. haha. i know i dont have a 财神命, so i played ten cents a time. LOL. i lost a total of a dollar plus. HAHA!

chu er, i went to the turf club with my dad. he need to do some entertaining.. for his business. met up one of his business partner. a uber rich man with 5 daughters. look at his daughters dresses alr can tell that they superrr rich. all their dresses are tailor-made. haha! the lucky thing is, they are nice and not cocky. haha! and i am amazed at how out-spoken all of them are. cos alot of the laoren turned up, means all the business uncles. they know exactly what to say and they can even engage in conversations with their dad's friends. QIANG! i only went there to eat and listen. haha! cos my dad's friend is the owner of 3 horses so the turf club gave them VIP seats. wooo, first time turning for such an occassion. i really need to learn the techniques of socialising.

i am still rotting at home. zzzzz

a part of me wants to go back to melb cos i aint doing anything productive now. i want to go back to complete my course quicklyyy
but of cos a lot of parts of me (lol) doesnt want to go back. no friends no family nothing there. grrr.

the lion dance dancing at my place ;D

my 2 little cousins

china town ;D

my hols

2009-01-22T11:23:00.002+08:00

haha! iljimae is a damn good show! wad a hero~

it's CNY soon!

derrick <3

2009-01-11T14:52:00.003+08:00

haha!!!
WOO. i went for DERRICK's autograph session/ party of D year! wheee!
shiok! i managed to see derrick real life! wahaha! :DD
i was super elated. thanks to REGINA!! yeahyeah. thanks for accompanying me! and i was glad that she enjoyed herself too :))
thanks win and ser for the CD!
yeahyeahhh. derrick's super cute :))

party of D year

thanks reg!

hello 09!

2009-01-01T13:44:00.005+08:00

happy new year everyoneeee :]
woo, 08 was a damn !@#$^&*( year for me. and im glad it's gone. i hope 09 will treat me better huh! haha! pls!! lol.

woo! i have so much to blog about. i learnt alot during my 4 months stay in aussie! haha, and i am so proud of myself cos i managed to pull thru the terrible 4 months without my family and friends! woo. i am really a superdebbie. haha! yeah, i will treasure my remaining 2 months here in singapore :)) i have been trying to attend all the meet-ups and gatherings :] shiok! all went well and i seriously miss my everyone and school!

gathering with dancers was fun! lots to gossip about. a trip back to rv was of cos nostalgic. thou we nvr studied in the school compound before, i think the feelin of being a rvian just rocks :] shiok. and i love rv's syf item.! woooo. we tried dancing anggun when we were back in rv. totally madness! haha! forgetten almost all the steps. haha! stayover at youxin's house was good. all the food and singing make us high! haha! thanks youxin!!

2e outing was damn fun! de one at waruku! im soooooooooo glad that we still have class outing till today! woo. everyone is still as funny and lame as eva :] thanks for the bdae treat and surprise! woo, and thanks jo for orgainising! xiexieni le mei nu! hhaa

s13's trip to botanic garden was lame.! haha! but i have to agree that i did have lots of fun altho the weather was crazily hot! haha! lol. feeding fishes, taking photos of my flying hair, jump shots, rubbishbin and me, jason and his immature ideas, starbucks, gossips yet again, town, who can find the most friends game, 50 points, 100 points for doing a star jump, 30 points for finding adeline, 60 points for accompanying mel to the toilet, another 300 points for accompanying mel to the same cubicle. lol. ok, the loser is of cos jason! haha! wheww, i saw queen and wt and we all did the star-jumps, so i had 300 in the end hor. hahah! i welcome your challenge again, jason! haha!

countown at marina bay. a mixture of all jo's friends. it was a good way of socialising but win and i left the group for a while to join laoban and his friends :] i wan a good year ahead.!

debbie knows she will have a good year ahead. shoo all the obstacles and kns away!
i'll be better in time :]

oh, and i wan to add, thanks everyone for coming down to send me off when i first flew to melb. woo, i was so busy talkin to everyone that i din feel afraid at all until the v last min when i really had to leave and step thru the gates. my 4 months there was absolutely boring and i felt real lonely almost all the times. no damn close and good friends. no family. and everytime i feel like breaking down, i will spend my time lookin thru all the photos and videos i took w everyone. i am so thankful ;]] i really dunno how to express my gratitude. but thank you friends! i love all of youuuu ;]

& to those who remembered my bdae, thank you!

这感觉已经不对

HOME

2008-12-06T00:18:00.002+08:00

helloooooo!!!

my first post since i came back to this lovely island :))

this week has been a fulfilling week :)))
i met up with most of my friends! damn happy.! hahah! seriously :D
and thank you for all those who came to look for me! wheee :D haha!

and i finally can youtube like forever :) wheee. i love home!
but i really had some difficulties adjusting to the weather here. i reallly find it damn humid and hot. zzz but other den that, i love singapore! i love the affordable food here. i love channel 8 and channel U. i love my ahma's cookings. i love my friendsss :))
woohooo. meeting up win they all tmr! i cant waittt!! wheee! yeah yeahhh :D

a simple text gone wrong

2008-11-06T20:13:00.004+08:00

wahaha! yes, the title says it all!
my papa lar, he's super FUNNY!
cos these few days i have been a bit down with stress and loneliness. haha! that day i broke down on the phone w my mama. den my anxious parents got really worried lo and the next day my dad and mum called me for a total of 6 times! wahah! den as filial as always i decided not to make them so worried anymore, so at night, i innocently sent a lovely msg to my parents to declare my affection for them. it goes like " i love you, see you when im back. stop worrying bout me..goodnite" den my phone suddenly rang!!! gave me a shock cos my aust phone don usually ring at such late hours! "你想不开阿!" damn funny lar! my dad tot i 想不开?!? super funny! den i throughout the phone call keep laughing. i think this is the most amusing thing that has ever happened since a while. LOL! cannot take it! after the phone call, i was still damn high and overly amused so i decided to share this incident w ys. haha! den he suggested me to send BYEBYE to my parents! totally madness! i really don dare lar. if not the nxt moment i see my dad here is some spaceship or smth! wahaha!!

ok, I THINK MY PARENTS ARE SO FUNNY!
I LOVE MY FUNNY PARENTS.
I REALISE THE ONI WAY TO TELL THEM I LOVE THEM NOW IS THRU MY BLOG. NO MORE MUSHY TEXT ANYMORE. LOL.

gloomy month

2008-11-04T21:02:00.002+08:00

must be the dreadful exams that are making everyone super emotional nowadays!!
ok, i have to admit that i am one of the victims. i am a bad stress-handler, esp since exams are just a week away!
i love my mama! haii, initially when i come over i was scared that i would just go insane without my mama with me thru exams period. but so luckily, theres such thing call the phone and of cos globalisation has pulled distances closer and my mama is still here for me!! haha!
i was studying biz law until i get super fed up. i just don understand why theres existence of 2 opposite laws that contradict with one another. why cant they just decide on one and just delete one away. make me so super confuse! wthhh!
haha, yeah! my mama is plannin on a family trip!! wheee! wo yao!
i cant wait to go back HOME.

家就是家，没有任何地方可以取代家！！
我要回家了！！

so very affected by blogs

2008-11-01T22:41:00.002+08:00

i am so affected by blogs. more like, i wish all my friends are happy :(

before i get to the very upsetting part of my entry, i have to exclaim that yirong and shengzhong should really get married lar! haha! oops! read her blog read her blog! haha! sweet and loving to the max! haha! hehe. i really hope to attend their wedding one day! haha! yeah man! and reg and ken's too! wahahaa! oh, so high!!

i cant wait to get back to singapore. i seriously miss those crazy people i have as friends. haha :D but some @#$%^&^%$#@ pple like haoting and jianming wont even be in singapore when i am back! SIANED!

i have decided not to write any emo content. but i really wish all my friends happiness!
敢敢做个开心人！

i have alot of things to say but i dunno who to tell them to...

halloween night

2008-10-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

today marks the last day of school. last day of my first semester in uni melb.
it's really quite unbelievable! i really have the crazy urge to go home. i miss my family alot alot :(

went out w hf and ym for our usual friday lunch. bought a bit of fruits and snacks to last me thru the coming week of vacation. the xmas atmosphere is here alr! it's really very different from singapore. the things they sell here for xmas are like WAH. so many many ornaments and costume. haha! i was so tempted to buy this santa claus constume. haha! but i know i wont have much chance to wear tho -.-

oh yes, i haven introduced this vvv nice corridor in my school. it's like the exact corridor in the movie 不能说的秘密. i really love the corridor man. it's like so super romantic. really!! haha! i always tell my friends that whenever i walk pass that corridor i will feel like acting out that very part of the movie. wahah!

anw it's spring now and i find it super amazing. when i first came, the trees were totally bald and they look erm, sad.. now it's like so greeenn and so leafy! haha. but i din notice the leaves growing at all leh. like all the leaves suddenly came back after a nite. haha!

..emohgniog

SHOO

2008-10-29T20:29:00.005+08:00

omygawd!the flies here are huge fat and disgusting! 2 almost flew into my mouth while i was laughing while walking to the law building! cannnot take it! damn disgusting.! wth! and one ugly bug flew into my room this morn! wasted my whole morning trying to get rid of it. i wanted to spray it with my deodourant but i didn wan to clean its corpse so i really din now what to do man. wth. plus my room is so big and so quiet, i keep hearing the buzzing sound of the fly. ultra traumatising. i really hate them. they make me a freak! haha. i hope bugs dont fly in anymore. puhlease!!! let go of me!!

haha. oh yar that day i bumped into MR ONG in safeway (the ntuc here)! cannot take it! the world is so small!! haha and i din noe he's here lar. ok, the MR ONG i am referring to is our sec2 chem teacher. haha. the teacher who always ask shoawen to fill his bottle. haha!! he remembered my name lar. but he din rmb which class i was from. den i keep mentioning names of 2e classmates to him. lol. chinyue!! his fav student. haha! he rmbed mao too! haha! he was like "same class as xihui rite" LOL the world is smalllllllllll :)

oh, that day sulao called me up to go attend his FYP presentation.shiokkk! i wan!! :DD and he told me a bit bout the SYF items he is intending to come up with for NJ and RV. and i think the my batch of rvgals confm damn excited. hahha! i cant reveal here la, i think. i am excited for the dancerss! haha!! i told him i will go back and KPO! haha!!

just now i talked to my ahma over the phone. evoke alot of emotions in me. my ahma asked me if it's tough and all over here. i din say yes but honestly, no is a lie. away from everything is crazy. but anw, she keep encouraging me! i feel so touch. she said that coming here was my choice so i have to be brave and make my choice a right one. so nice. i love my ahma. can u imagine?! i was looked after by her since when i was like 0 years old. until now.. i just wish i can finish my studies asap of cos w a good degree and go back be a damn filial grand-daughter. i love my ahma cos no matter what she has always been v proud of me :D altho she sometimes think that 女孩子不用读这么多书的.haha. cos she wasnt that supportive of me coming over. haha!she doesn wan me to come over to suffer.haha! but suffer is a strong word lar, i dont think i am suffering, just takin a tougher path that i nvrrrrrrrrr imagine myself to really take up. haha, den i was telling my mum that my berms' zip broke. den my as usual extremely anxious and over dramatic mother insited that i put on damn alot of weight, thats why my berms broke. den my ahma keep laughing. she say 很好笑，我怕你那边没有东西吃会变瘦。妈妈说你肥到裤子破，我就不用担心你没有东西吃。den she keep laughin.haha!! damn cute! i love my ahma! everything about her is so lovable. when i grow old, i want to look exactly like her. fat and cute! for once, i wan to be fat. ahaha!!

oh nigel, check up OAL- overseas academic link. i think they are better den the agency u mention. lol. from wad my friends say la. both are agents for foundation schools here so it doesnt matter. i went thru oal so i think it's better. and my friend took her foundation here too after As, took her 8 months nia cos jc pple can take the accelerated course. actaully alot jc pple takin that so it's not bad lar. plus everything is learn b4 one so should be ok rite. if u urgent now rite can go check out oal yourself first. they have a web online. if not i can go w u after i go back la cos i came here thru the boss of oal and i think she's damn good. and she's still helpin me with certain things here. anw tell ur parents bout all these first lo. like 8 months foundation den uni. actually no much diff lar.

da jia, wo yao hui jia le~

last week!

2008-10-28T15:23:00.002+08:00

WOOTS! 1 more month!!!!!!!!
i cant wait!!!!!!

ehh. school is super duper boring! i cant wait to go home! wheee! i cant contain my excitement man. wo yao hui jia le~

oh, anyone interested to visit melbourne nxt yr? cos i think it's really super cheap to come over! the exchange rate fallen to 0.94 per $1 leh! shiokkk! plus nxt yr march to june rite, malaysia airlines 2 way ticket to melbourne is only 1500 ringgit!! haha! i am paying $1500 for my airticket now man. woohoo, come pple come! come visit the land of melbourne!! haha! :DDD

sianed exams coming. my tian, think le also will headache -.- gosh..

haha, anyway, i cooked fried rice today! quite nice alr. haha. the taste is not just plain rice and egg anymore. woohooo. :DD
oh, honestly, i have been pretty moody since i came. haha! and the best best medicine is of cos to have someone to talk to. but sometimes, best medicine is hard to find. so the 2nd best medicine are the videos jm yl win and ht took in thailand. damn funny. i think i watch it every week and i really still find it damn hilarious esp the episode on yeowlin's chopstick. haha! oops, i realise i haven given them a copy yet. wahaha! i miss my friends!

i miss my family too! my bed, bolster. ahma's food. okok, I AM COMING HOME!!!

i am loving myself more

2008-10-17T21:15:00.006+08:00

yes i am loving myself. haha.
i suddenly recalled win's entry on the i am lucky cos.. and i think it rocks cos it makes me recall and reflect how lucky i am. even if there is one reason for me to be seriously upset over, there are many thousands of reasons for me to be happy :)

cause i believe 那幸福不滅的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握緊
就像恆星總會有發光的原因
and i believe
你值得被珍惜也值得我放棄

they say, one day i will wake up and feel nothing.
my gut feeling says that day is coming :)

BIG MEGA SECRET

2008-10-16T18:14:00.002+08:00

haha! yesyes, i have an ultra secret which cant be shared. haha! sianed, i hate keepin secrets to myself altho that's the reason why secret exists (to keep lar, duh). it's a happy secret, i am going back singapore to share this wonderful secret with all of u. haha. i am already imagining all the shock faces that i guess i will be seeing.. haha!! but for now, i totally cant reveal, so dont ask and dont guess!! wahahaha!! -evil laughter-

oh! i received a snail mail from youxin! damn touched! it was a huge stack of photographs! really bring back alot of memories man. plus i love the photos cos i look thinner.. WAHAHA. altho i used to complain alot about the crazy dance schedules, i am sort of missing them now.. i miss dancing with all of them.. sianed!!!

tmr's biz law test and i think i have completed studying.. but still have to force myself to re-read everything agn.. i cant wait for tmr's test to be over! woohooo~ den can slack a bit before preparation for exams. groans!

my life

2008-10-15T20:58:00.002+08:00

woohoo. wad am i doing here when i shl=ould be memorising who has defamed who and who should be liable for breaching of contracts. zzz anw, i just wanna say taking care of myself can be such a hassle and exhausting thing to do. i just paid the rent and i didnt know i was late for half a month. i have no idea that they dont post me invoices and i have to remember paying them on the every 1st of the month. zzz and when i pay i realise i paid to their wrong biller code. but luckily it was the college squares' account too. wth i foresee that my mum will be in shock now. i din do that by mistake or carlessness cos the authorities here din tell me to apply for their biller code so that i can pay rent through the code. haiz. damn sian. i'm learning, but theres too much to absorb!

posted my advertisement on the noticeboard to rent out my room from dec to feb so that i wont have to pay the 2 months rent when i am not here but no one teared down my number.. zzz haihai. sad sad sad emo emo emo.. ok, i will be fine la. just let me rattle.. i think it is most probably due to pre-biz law test blues..

i just have to stop doing nothing and stop wasting my life away on being envious of other people's life.
i told jas to get win some life. i should get a life too man. or else my mum will drag me and win to some evil place to do some evil things. haha! (win, it's a secret btw the 2 of us yea ;)) so win, get a life not in my mum's context but i seriously mean a social life. haha! i shall find mine sooonnn.! :)

gogogogo DEBBIE

MAMA PAPA!

2008-10-13T20:53:00.000+08:00

ilu MAMA
ilu PAPA.

haha!!

twelve october

2008-10-12T18:09:00.003+08:00

woohoo. i just skyped with my parents. HAHA
super high!my mama's and sister's hair are scary!
i guess i really havent seen them for quite a while. today's webcam was great! whee!
i so wanna go home!!

ok, back to the books :X

today's 12 oct again.

hehe!

2008-10-08T15:51:00.002+08:00

i had biz law today. entering the lecture room reminded me of an incident that happened during biz law lec 2 weeks ago. haha! i think i haven blogged bout it before. okay, apparently people say the westerners are more open-minded. and of cos, they are true.! i think so..

cos 2 weeks ago during our lecture, there was this couple kissing away very passionately when the lecturer was speaking. it is a very common sight here! but the funny part was when the lecturer said, " they guy in green, i would say, get your degree first before you get married." wth, i laugh until peng. den i asked hf, does this kind of thing happen in nus? haha. he say "no lar".. ok lo. haha. so it's really the culture.! wahah! but really here super common.! i have seen couples parting so reluctantly to go for different classes. ohman. haha. like movie leh. ahaa. den cos my school is super romantic! i really have to agree plus the coolin weather makes it all the more lovely, i really see alot of passionate couples all around! wahaha! somemore they not paiseh but i feel super paiseh to walk past them!! omgawddd. hehe

and the good news is! aussie dollar is droppin! quick drop again! but i feel a little sian cos my parents changed it when it was super expensive. :( blehhh. but continue droppin mr aussie dollars! hahaha!

a little more determination

2008-10-07T21:02:00.002+08:00

first day of school was alright. just that i was reminded of the date dues for assignments. WTH!

oh yes, due to some daylight saving zone thingy that is happening here in australia. my time here now is 3 hrs ahead of singapore time! totally sian! 2 hrs was bad enough. now 3. anw, i only realised the difference today but i wasnt late for school. i dont know why. i think it's scary. maybe my clock automatically updated itself when i was asleep last nite -.-"

today my friend and i were talkin bout what to do after exams. HAHA. there's still some time but still.. haha! we enjoy talkin about such stuff. our only entertainment. haha!

i am tired! blehhhh

singapore day 08

2008-10-04T19:04:00.005+08:00

WOOHOOO. SINGAPORE DAY ROCKS TOTALLY.! although there was too much pple. haha!

alot of singaporean-posers. wth!i dunno if non-singaporeans were invited but i still find it uncomfortable leh. haha! cos they wont feel as much as i do! come here take freebies, eat free food nia. lol. still complain so much. lol! anw there was seriously damn alot of pple! we queued up for almost an hr b4 gettin thru the securities. den queue for another hr plus to get food. the food rocks really! authentic singapore food from food republic! WHEEE. i really really miss singapore food. when i go back i must eat damn alot of local food! wahaha.

oh! and PCK came! he rocks totally. i spent more than half the time sitting in the theatre watching him lar. freakin funny. cannot take it.! and all the singlish really rocks my day. it has been quite a while since i last hear pple say kanasai man! wahaha. and yes, jasmine lau, my senior, she was approached by the singapore day organiser to act with PCK as aloysius' (chu beng's son) girlfriend. i was damn shock to see her on stage. damn funny! wahaha!

i miss singapore! after the entire comedy by PCK, i felt a little more homesick than i was previously. haii. i want to go HOME!

there's absolutely nothing here that can make me happy..
everyday i just look forward to nite time so that i can text ys or msn with friends in singapore. i need to get a life here man.

haha! i suddenly rmb that there's this pack of wet tissue inside the goodie bag for singapore day and it reads "very clean wan" damn comical! haha!! all the singlish just makes me damn high! wheee

i think i am going to be extremely pro in faking smiles.

the longggg queue

us in the queue

hehe! road signs

me and my goodie bag

oh i seriously wish i was in city hall or fort canning

queuing for food

PCK! LOL

satay! :D

char kway teow

DPM of SINGAPORE :D

tay peng hui

RVDS! sound of bliss. i am so honoured! :)

i feel super muggerish

2008-10-02T14:20:00.001+08:00

zzz..
yeah.! singapore day is just round the corner! haha! this coming sat! ohman, pls dont rain!! haha!
i cant wait! woohooo. i am going to gobble down all the authentic singapore local food man! wahaha. satay meesiam here i come! woots!

blehh. exams are also just round the nxt corner! wad de sian. but i cant wait! i cant wait for exams to be over den v soon i'll be on my way home! ohmygod! everytime when i dream of myself on the plane home, my heart always skips a bit. haha! too happy alr larrr!! :DDD

there's dance tonight :)

eventful week

2008-09-28T11:59:00.004+08:00

oh.last week was the first week of my spring break :) whee. it was good.! i spent time watching gossip gal, 90210 and so you think you can dance. OHHH! the dancers in season 4 were SUPERB!

i went out of melbourne city to the suburbs too :) went to yarra valley for their wineries and meadows. went to the royal melbourne show and tulip farm too :)

i miss singapore.!

singapore day is next week!! :))

oh and thanks to those who emailed me bout singapore day. haha!!

YARRA VALLEY

ROYAL MELBOURNE SHOW

the lambs were running around! i was damn shocked! haha :D

im wearing a halo!

TULIP FARM

i think this purple tulip look super sexy. haha

water bills

2008-09-26T10:12:00.002+08:00

OMG! my water bills went all the way up to 40 bucks in just half a month. i dunno what went wrong but i seriously don think it's accurate at all!! :( my friend's one was oni 20 for a month? wth! WALAOO EH. spoil my day lar. zzz. omg wads wrong!!

anw i went to road trip last saturday to yarra valley. the scenery is just awesome. i cant believe my eyes lar, it's like a great patch of green meadows with nothin else but cows. haha! damn beautiful! wahaha. i love the place. i cant wait for my parents to come again so we can go together. haha!!

and i went for royal melb show ytd. it was superb. the atmosphere was damn high. their carnival and theme park is damn big. it's like at least 5 times the size of escape theme park. and the atmosphere was great. everyone was wearing weird specs, wigs and all the funny accessories. haha. so i bought a halo. WAHAHA. i cant post the pics up cos im too fat. i don wan to shock u guys. hahah!!!

oh, ytd i was online with win jm ht and ser! damn shuang. i love talkin to them lar. i should say i love technology! haha!! altho i am like damn far from them, i dont think im missing out alot on them. haha! shiok! cos i really made an effort to talk to them lo.. wooohooo. i cant wait to go back to singapore to continue crappin with them! haha. and the 2e outing!! wooots..

cleaning plus washing

2008-09-16T20:34:00.002+08:00

today i clean up my oily kitchen and hairy toilet. walao. damn disgusting. i was like frowning and ewwwing all the way man! all the dirt, oil stains plus strands of hair and dirty toilet bowl. GRR! omg! haha, but im glad that i have cleaned up my place again :) whee :))

i m gg for dance class tmr! cant wait! i hope it'll be fun cos it's gg to cost me 16aussies! @#$^&* haha!

good

2008-09-15T22:06:00.002+08:00

haha! this is gg to be one of the rare happy entries eva since i stepped into this country.haha!

oh yes, msning w friends in singapore makes me high. wooo. like win tell me bout how she and other np gals are doing. how jm ht and nigel are suffering in ns. how reg is coping w uni life! haha! shiok!

oh, 篮球火makes me even higher. LOL.
really!! everytime i watch yan cheng xun's show i think he's too cool lar. really! haha! they way he smirks is so ohmy! haha. ok watch the show pple!

and it's so great to have friends here. like theres this guy called hanfeng. he's super good in studies and super know it all. so i everything blur call him until a bit paiseh. lol. bills lar, sch work lar. LOL but he super helpful.even help me settle my phone bills cos mine is v complex cos i signed up phone and internet tgth as a package. haha! den me and other friends always bug him w our assignment. i hope we didnt scare him man. LOL.

it's good to have friends! :))

oh i am gg back home soon :)))

knowing

2008-09-14T12:43:00.004+08:00

ytd me sherry jas and evan went to celest and benj's house for soccer. before tt we had steamboat dinner..

hai, i was still waiting and longing for this weekend to come but i realise i have absolutely nothing to do. ytd i was so bored that i went city alone. altho i was alone, it felt better den staying at home seriously. i walked aimlessly, own time own target. quite nice tho. droppin by certain shops, sitting along the streets watchin street dancers perform. haha. i haven really experienced this kind of life in singapore. i dunno if i like it but still, so much better den stoning at home.

the first tot that came into my mind today when i woke up was "shit, another day". not like i donwan time to fly but i hate the feeling of having nth to do at all. and i din really feel like studying for this weekend esp when i have mugged my lungs out last week for the test. so i lied in bed, thinking again. SIOW. NOW I HAVE TOO MUCH TIME W MYSELF THAT I FIND MYSELF THINKING TOO MUCH. i wish i could let go.
it took me so much to realise that we can only just be friends.

the song that i have loved listening since..

BETTER IN TIME
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See, somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going, coming
Thought I heard a knock Who's there?
No one
Thinking that I deserved it
Now I realize that I really didn't know

If you didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning, to love again
All I know is, Imma be okay

Thought I couldnt live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time

Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
without something there to remind me
It wasn't all that easy to just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming
Don't wanna laugh, hurt my feelings
But that's the path, I believe in
And I know that, time will heal it

If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning, to love again
All I know is, I'm gon' be okay
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is, I'll be fine without you
Yes, I will

since there's no more you and me. it's time i let you go.
it's mid-autumn festival again

2008-09-07T20:59:00.002+08:00

reg says she's dancing again. i wanna dance to :(

i have been living on bread today. totally madnes.. haha. for breakfast i had two slices of bread with cheese. i woke up at 12 plus so my breakfast was my lunch. lol
den i had lots of garlic bread for dinner. bread bread and bread.
i used to detest bread in singapore cos i find them hard, dry and tasteless..
but i am starting to appreciate bread. cos it's cheap and filling. haha! not as cheap as singapore's bread but still cheapest. haha. and most importantly, easy to prepare. either with jam or cheese.

see, what i used to hate is what i like now. how fast things change. or i should say, how much i am forced to change..

adapt!!!

I MUST MUG HARD AND MUG LIKE SHIT..MUG LIKE THERES NO TMR! WAHAHA!

i vacuumed my house today. felt good cos it feels clean now. haha
bye

msn

2008-09-07T01:27:00.002+08:00

HAHA.I JUST HAD A WONDERFUL TIME MSN-ING W ALL MY FRIENDS :D MAYBE NOT ALL. A FEW BUT STILL DAMN HIGH TO TALK TO THEM. I REALLY MISS THEM. I CANT EMPHASIS MORE ON HOW MUCH I REALLY WANT TIME TO FLY SO THAT I CAN GET BACK TO SINGAPORE :D

IMAGINING MYSELF ON THE PLANE BACK TO SINGAPORE ALR BRING SMILES TO MY FACE. WOO HOOO. OK, BUT B4 I WILL HAVE TO FACE THE DREADFUL EXAMS. -.- I DUNNO HOW IT FEELS TO FACE THRU EXAMS W/O MY MAMA. ESP WHEN I GET SUPER STRESSED AND ALL DURING EXAMS. GRR.

WAIT, I JUST TALKED TO HAOTING!!! JUNJIE, YIFENG, WEITING, NIGEL. LOL.
super high. haha. eh pple, if i talk to u, try ur best to entertain me k. cos i am so lonely!! arghh!! haha!

recently, i have been thinkin alot. reflecting on life since i get to spend alot of time alone. but still, i find myself stuck in certain situations, left things undone, unsaid, hanging.. not the outcome which i really hoped for initially. hai. i regret alot but i dunno if i should pick up from where it was being left and get it over and done with. or just turn a blind eye to the mess, get rid of all the heartwares and move on with life.

but not like my life is so full of regrets. i am still v satisfied for what i have accomplished till now although much more could have been done. ahaha! i am very sure that i want to lead a more fruitful and happening life here in australia. like i don wan to go back to singapore and tell my friends, erm i have oni been to sch and maybe the city and the beach nearby. lol. so i have to start making plans!! haha! woots. i am thinking of going to a strawberry farm darm far away from where i live. may need a few hours ride. haha! i cant imagine what it is to be in a farm and i cant wait. my plan for this mid sem break :)))

oh. i really enjoy cooking. and altho i really "anyhow" but sometimes experimenting can result in favourable outcomes. wooo. haha

i miss home. 29 nov!!!!!!!!!!!!!

home

2008-09-04T20:21:00.001+08:00

我想家
爸爸妈妈我好想你们
你们还好吧
外婆还好吗
奶奶还好吗？？？？

大家还好吗？？？

2008-09-02T15:54:00.004+08:00

woohoo~ finally finished packing my room. haha! so that i can upload the photos of my room.

wahah! ok, i think i have more or less settled down. less homesick. i guess i still have to face the reality, i am here alr! altho i cant help but feel super envious when i go onto facebook and see win & co. gather. haha. i seriously wish i was there. haha. okok, i am also v glad that i have this chance to study abroad..lol.

oh, & more fortunate thing, i have this group of friends. erm. all singaporeans. haha., i still think it's easier to clique with singaporeans tho. cos we all have the same lingo and frequency. haha. it's hard to clique even w m'sians and indos. i think it's the singaporean thing. haha! :D and i am vv glad i found yumin here. haha! we were still complaining that nathalie should have made an effort to introduce us b4 we came lar cos we both suffered a tiny period of loneliness.i tot i was the weak one. crying and getting super emo at times but then i realise she gets emo too. haha. i think it's a part of adapting. lol. and now, so luckily, we found each other and some other friends. FANTASTIC MAN. haha. we are thinking of staying tgth next semester. haha! no more lonely meals etc. wooo. i cant wait! tho it's sad, friends are really everything here. haha. esp with frien like yumin, friends are also her alarm clock. LOL.

i hope everything will continue to go well for me. (:
i hope everything will go well in singapore, at home.

i still miss my friends in singapore. i really really wish i wont be a sorethumb sticking out, feelin odd when i meet up w u pple this coming dec.

PRESENTING TO YOU, MY BEAUTIFUL ROOM :DD

successful dinner

2008-08-31T21:43:00.005+08:00

HAHA! i managed to cook a good meal today. am damn proud of myself. super elated.

the best self-cooked meal since i came over. or i shld say, my entire life. haha! :DD
altho it looked really simple..but it took me some time -.- haha!
yeah i cant wait to cook tmr! (((:

oh, my new place is lovely and extremely homely. i just love my new placeee! hahaha :DD

grr. so much work! -.- i cant wait to complete all my work!

I CANT WAIT TO RETURN TO SINGAPORE! BLEHH MY FRIEN IS GG BACK TO SINGAPORE DURING THE 2 WEEKS BREAK.SIAN, I AM SO JEALOUS OF HIM!!!!

ermmm. 2 days ago, i ate this..

tonight's! isnt it great?!?! (:

The following photos are taken during orientation 4 weeks ago..

shocks

2008-08-29T12:52:00.002+08:00

woohooo i am damn high now. received lots of shocks in this two days. SUPER DUPER SHOCKING HAHA!
cos i have this guy friend here in melb. studying same course as me. and just ytd he told me his gf knew me. I WAS SUPER SHOCK WHEN HE TOLD ME WHO HIS GF WAS. LOL!!! den today, i just knew that 2 of my other friends got attached. super duper crazy. walao. when i was back in singapore, there wasnt such news one lor. must be cos uni starts, thats why everyone is so happening now. haha! how i wish my life is as happening. blehhh.

and facebook and blog totally rocks. tts how i manage to catch up w all your lives. if not i will be like totally lost when i go back in 4 months time. i really cant wait to go back!

CONGRATS TO ME! I FINALLY HAVE MY OWN ROOM OR I SHOULD SAY APARTMENT. ITS SUPER DUPER BIG. TOO BIG FOR ME LAR.! ANYONE WANTS TO COME MELB? U ARE FREE TO CRASH MY PLACE! HAHA :DD

haha! and just now i called a few friends. super happy and i know they are equally delighted to hear my voice. wahaha! :DD called win but she's in lecture and she tot im back in singapore. impossible larr. haha! den called serene. she's also in some kiddo art class. LOL. only reg was free cos she no sch on friday.!

i really miss home and singapore.
妈妈我好想你！o well. i tot if i come over my mama wont nag that much. zzz but cos of improvements in technology, my mum can still nag tt much. via sms, msn, email, overseas phone call. -.-

oh!!!!!!! i must really say. i got an international scholarship fm unimelb. 5000 bucks. shiok man. i this kind of results also can get scholarship. damn joke. altho 5000 is nth compared to the mad sch fees but i am still happy! wheee. hahaha!

i promise my mum to lead a more active life after i move to my this new place. but where shld i start... blehhh. ok, i will go groceries shoppin at vic market tmr. all the meat veges fruits, here i come! wahha.!

i will upload the photos of my new place in the nxt blog. BYE! :D

2008-08-23T20:33:00.008+08:00

2008-08-17T18:49:00.002+08:00

woohooo
i lagged at home for the entire friday and sat! omtian! i am such a lazy bum.esp now its winter u seriously don feel like stepping out into the cold. haha. i love the cosy cosy bed!wahaha

i cant wait to move into my new apartment!!

woots. i love the mint choco balls here!wahaha.super shiok!

OH BTW! I AM WATCHIN 篮球火 HERE! ITS DAMN GOODDDD! HAHA :DDD
I MISS 飞轮海 LEH.HAHA! ARGHHH. THE INTERNET CONNECTION HERE IS DAMN STUPID. THEY DON HAVE THE UNLIMITED PLANS HERE. SO THE CHARGE BY THE AMT OF DOWNLOADS. SIANN. SO I HAVE TO CONTROL MY YOUTUBINGS. HAHA! IF NOT EXCEED SURE SUPER SIAN. PLUS THE SPEED HERE IS SLOWWWWWWW LARR. OKOK. I AM COMPLAINING A BIT TOO MUCH. HAHAHA.

i miss singapore! i cant wait to go backkk!! 3 more months and 1 week!

2008-08-10T09:49:00.003+08:00

happy national day!

HAPPY BDAE SINGAPORE! :DDD

arghhh. i miss singapore.

i watched the olympic opening on fri and was seriously disappointed. cos i waited damn long for the singaporeans to come out but the aussie media din really film them at all.! i was sianed la, totallyyy!! so sian can, then they keep showing the aussie representatives screaming and gg wild. zzz. so sadd!!

oh, ytd i went to watch the ndp with all the other singaporeans fm melb uni, monash and RMIT. haha. quite a big event lar. wahhh. i seriously enjoyed the parade. haha. everyone was screaming and cheering like mad when the ministers and president arrive. haha. the best part was when everyone stood up tgth to sing the national anthem and take the pledge! haha. siann, super long nvr sing the anthem alr can. haha. and the thing is, i used to sing the anthem dilligently every morn in the parade square lo. haha. HAHA.

i love singaporeee!
i miss home too

random cooking

2008-08-06T17:03:00.004+08:00

2008-08-05T15:08:00.005+08:00

jap stone dinner (((:

my papa

hot choco cake & icecream

horses & carriages on the streetsss

caravan!!! i am plannin to go all over aust w thiss

caravan (((:

my dad and me at geelong (((:

de car plate does have any formula to follow

cakesssss!! yummmmm

((((((:

ctyside

cookin w my dad! (:

at de market!

michelle and i

helicopter at the bayy

seafood restaurant