i am soooo overwhelmed, mainly with sadness.
so many things happened. and as i grow older day by day, i realise how rare happiness comes by.
i was sooo affected by general election that i started to hate my home and people from my home. i hate how ungrateful people are and how nasty their comments were. accept it that they have done alot for our country, and just by that fact, they dont deserve such nasty treatment. i am scared of people from my country. does it make sense? so critical, so cold and the place scares me now. i feel like a turtle, trying to hide back into my own shell, unwilling to face the cold hard world. sg now seems like an ugly place. i am soo sad, to think that i love my country so much. so much so that people used to call me a nationalist. i told my parents that i dont feel like going back cos sg now seems like a unfriendly place. i told that to my friends here and alot of them felt that i overreacted. but i am quite unwilling to admit that. i should say its because i used to really love sg so much that i actually secretly dislike friends for complaining about sg. how can people scold tpl when they themselves dont even have better qualifications. how can they discredit her just because of an interview. and how can sgp who dont speak any better than rislow laugh at her? i mean, since when laughing and passing mean remarks of other people were accepted. :( i never understood why anti groups exist. why would anyone want to make life suck for others? i dislike many many things too, but why to the extent of being an anti and making others' life so bad? do they actually feel happier?
i saw the video of GY's last media conference. i was overwhelmed and cried for v long. i was so full of admiration. i cant believe that man who was facing the cold-hearted world was actually smiling. i cant believe he thanked us for giving him the chance to serve. he doesnt have to. i would feel better if he had reprimanded us for being ungrateful and stupid. i know alot of people would think that he prolly din mean what he say but who cares! he said it! he didnt have to :( im so uber sad. why isit that the stupid Axxx voters get to decide if out MFA gets to stay or leave. WTFFF i feel helpless and i dont like it that the world is just unfair.
i wish i could turn back time. when such things dont matter.
signed off at10:51 PM